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Sunday, August 28, 2005 ; 4:48 PM

Have I done anything that offended you? I dunno if I'm overly sensitive or something. But I really did felt that both of you are rather cold. To me. Yeah.. Even if the feeling is subtle. But it's definitely there.

Friday, August 26, 2005 ; 11:42 PM

I'm sort of in a blogging mood today.

1) Ethelyn's back from New York! Yahoo! She landed on Wednesday and on the same day itself, went back to school for the last day of English Oral.

2) Me and Ethelyn studied in the school library today. Dunno why but I just feel the sense of accomplishment. Haha.. Maybe because a) I've got 73.3% for the MCQs on Organic Chemistry from the TYS and b) Studying in school today wasn't such a trial coz I didn't feel that sleepy anymore after a 10 mins nap. :
3) Ethelyn brought back with her another great read for me. Meg Cabot's latest novel 'Ready Or Not'. I asked her to help me buy the hardcovered edition in US coz there's always only the paperback ones in Singapore. So she bought it as a souvenir for me. Yayness. Now I have something new to read again. Could not help it. I knew I should be studying but I just had to read at least the first chapter of the book. I can't wait till after O's, you know.
Meg Cabot has the pen.
I love her books till the end.

6) I left my school handbook in the library. I feel so crippled without it. Not that I have any secrets written in it. I hope it's in the lost and found box on Monday. I can't live without it. Not after I spent one hour of my precious sleeping time decorating it and writing in my beautifulest handwriting the exam schedules yesterday night.

5) Oh my freaking goodness. Prelims is in 6 days.

6) Good heavens gracious me. O's is in 5 weeks.

7) *beep* *beep* and I'm so not prepared. _yet? Hmm.. Will I ever?

Blogspot is screwed. Friendster is snail slow. Pop-ups scares me. My computer hates me! Aahh..! *pulls hair*

Friday, August 19, 2005 ; 11:05 PM

I don't know why but I'm suddenly so into Seventeen magazines now. Haha.. I'm even making a shopping list for one of my post-O's trips to downtown. Haha.. Yeah. I know. I should be concentrating on my studies now but I got to dream about life after O's to keep me going. Heh.. :P

Friday, August 12, 2005 ; 4:19 PM

My life ain't brilliant.
I don't see my angel.
Life isn't fair.
Well, at least there's a second chance.
I won't want to let it miss again.
However, it wasn't the grades that made me so depressed.
It's certain examples that really struck me,
showing me once again how unfair life really is.

Tuesday, August 09, 2005 ; 11:12 PM

I'm still killing myself over what happened yesterday. Why am I so useless? Why do I always crumble under pressure/anxiety and make mistakes when I'm not supposed to and normally don't? The National Day celebrations in school yesterday was a just a huge scary nightmare. It didn't seemed that there was a lot of mistakes but I think I'm the biggest dance screwer. Everybody could see it coz it's so blardy obvious. Shucks.. I've made a total fool out of myself and should go stick my head in some hole and not come out anymore. Argh!!! I hate it!!! I hate myself!! Everytime I'm reminded of the whole incident and I started hitting myself to distract my mind. How very normal.

Mum just told me that Maia Lee was my cousin's classmate in Temasek Poly, Fashion Design faculty. And she requested for my cousin to help her design this gown which she wore to some function. Turns out that people complimented her on her gown and wanted to know who was the designer. And quite some time ago before my cousin graduated from Poly (he's serving his NS now), there was this fashion exhibition in school and Fandi Ahmad's wife took a liking to one of the gowns he designed and wanted to buy it. But he refused. What a good move, man. Oh wells. People with artistic talents are eccentric and he doesn't design clothes for just anybody. So fat hope of having him design one for me. :( But anyway, my auntie is going to save up money for him to go study fashion design abroad and when he gets back, I reckon that he'll be famous and earns big bucks. Haha.. Well yeah.. He's got talent, you know. On the other hand, it's kinda hard to believe that there is actually somebody in my family who's so talented. If I've inherited some of his artistic genes and shine in at least something instead of pitching myself in the middle of nowhere. Coz that's sad.

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Sunday, August 07, 2005 ; 12:34 AM

Today, there's the youth group Dinner Under The Stars thingy. It was at Magic Wok, Novena Square. All of us were dressed up to the nines. The girls in skirts and guys in shirts and ties. Woah.. Actually I was kind of excited to see how Sien and XL will look like in a skirt. Haha.. In all the years I've known them, I believe I've never seen them in skirts before. Sien.. Yeah. In her school skirt la. But XL, not even in that lor. So today was pretty interesting. Not to mention kinda pleasant to the eye too. I never did expect that there would be a day when everybody in my youth group would really go dress up. It's like a dream come true. Haha.. And I'm not exaggerating. :P

Oh. And there's the crux of the entire event of the night. The girls and guys were supposed to pair up and have their dinner together. The setting is kinda sweet, at the outdoors and under the night sky, the decorating committee have done a great job with the place. But hello? They certainly seemed like they are matchmaking us la. With the guys handing the flowers to the girls and pulling the chairs for them and the candles on the table.. It really felt like I've been thrown into some Romancing Singapore campaign or something. Haha.. So I was asking Huang Chun why did it feel oddly like a matchmaking session and she said that it was to actually teach us how to behave like ladies and the guys, as men. And also, our dinner etiquettes. Oh wells. My partner was Andrew. They purposely pair up guys who are of the same age or a year older than the girls. Well sure, Andrew and me are of the same age. But he's born in December. Muahaha.. Bleh.. And thank God so much that there's 4 people (me, XL, Andrew and Maax) to a table. Otherwise I won't know what to say if there were only the 2 of us and especially since I've never talked to him except once on msn. :P Yeah so.. The guys were instructed to help us get our food and drinks and all. It feels good to be served. Haha.. We eventually got the hang of things and were talking up a storm. Quite fun actually. Got to know more about each other when we don't initially. After the dinner ended, we realized that our table was probably one of the most interesting one around. Coz Sien came to our table and complained like nobody's business, that it was super boring at her table and no one was talking at all throughout the entire dinner. And she started blaming the guys at our table that guys should take the initiative to start conversations. Haha.. Then Maax and Andrew was like "But we got talk ma!!" So funny.. Haha.. :P Actually felt kind of sorry for her and Jamie coz they did try to start a conversation but it didn't really work. Then I think most probably is the fault of the guys. Tsk tsk..

Saturday, August 06, 2005 ; 12:13 AM

Woah man.. There's so so so much I wanna blog before I plop down to bed for tonight. It's been such a hectic and fully packed day. I've walk/danced so much and stood so long that my knees hurt and is on the verge of giving way. Haha.. :P

Anyway, there's the Be-Yourself Day judging, which I didn't help much coz I had to reach AS 1 by 2 to get prepared for the National Day full dress rehearsals. Our dance was super messy and had to film it again. :( By the time we finished everything, it was around 430pm. Then removed makeup and washed the yucky gel off my hair, it was 5 and poor Lee Si waited so long for me at the foyer. Heh.. :P

Yeah so.. We headed to Singapore Indoor Stadium for the Festival of Praise and I tell you, it was packed packed packed!! This year they only allowed one entrance and there was a super super looonnnggg queue. We had absolutely no idea how to get to Anthea who managed to queue all the way upstairs, which is considered quite front already. Coz they blocked off the exits and only allowed that single pathetic queue, we saw some people sneaking up the stairs, which I thought wasn't allowed to but then again, we didn't see the person controlling at that time. So me and Lee Si sneaked up too. Heh.. Then we had to walked past the long long queue of people to look for Anthea and her cousin. And surprise surprise!! Guess who I saw? Yao Peng! It's so qiao la. We were friends from Pr 1 to 3. Then he left the student care centre and I met him again when I transferred to Red Swastika when I was in Pr 5. After we left the school, I didn't see him again until the Student Camp at Anglican High during June and now we've met again. How cool is that? Just briefly greeted each other and walked past.
And for FOP, wow man.. It was fantastically powerful. I felt so revived. There's the platform for absolute worship and I wished I could do this forever. Yes. Seriously. One day, we will do just that in Heaven. Worshipping God forever and ever. :) I'm glad Hillsongs led songs which I'm familiar with. It was Delirious from UK's first visit to Singapore. Their songs are abit different from Hillsongs. A bit on the hard rock side but nevertheless, their lyrics are very meaningful. But I still prefer Hillsongs. :P
Ohoh. Meeting Yao Peng was one of the interesting stuffs that happened to me today. After me, Lee Si, Anthea and her cousin, Ru Ying (err.. is that right, Anthea? :P) were nicely settled on the left side and not very very far from the stage, I THOUGHT I saw Colin. He's from my church, the English congregation side and one of the mission trippers and were groupmates for last week's missions training. Ok. Let me redeem myself first. Firstly, I said I thought I saw him coz I don't really talk to him. In fact, I think I haven't talked to him before. And secondly, I've seen guys who looked like him la. And I really don't wanna embarrass myself by getting the wrong person. He was just sitting at the next block of seats, a couple of rows above us. He didn't see me. But after the FOP ended, I guess he saw me and was starring at me (which I assumed so la. :P). But I pretended not to know coz maybe I assumed wrongly and waved at him when he's looking at someone behind me or something? Haha. But then again, if it really was him, it's kinda mean of me to do that. In a way ignore him, I mean. Ok then. I shall go ask him tmr or on Sunday. :P
When we were trying to get out of the auditorium, there was alot of people trying to walk also la. And I saw Yao Peng again! No hidden meaning behind this. But seriously. The indoor stadium is SO big and he happened to be sitting somewhere nearby and leaving the same time as us. Heh.. And same for Colin too. He was sitting so nearby.
Me and Ru Ying were trying to buy Hillsongs' cds while Lee Si and Anthea went to the restroom. I wanted to buy the HOPE cd. Yeah I know it's an old cd of their's but I like lots of songs in there. Costs me 22 bucks. Ru Ying wanted to get the latest cd 'God, He reigns' (or something). But she was short of 6 bucks. I lent her the last 3 bucks I had and Lee Si and Anthea were completely wiped out. Then I met Ariz, Daniel and Xavier's eldest brother (I've met him in church before but didn't know his name. Heh..) And borrowed 10 bucks from him. Haha.. So embarrassing. Made the cashier wait while standing in the middle of a crowd and borrowing money from someone whom I don't even know the name. :P But I will pay him back in church, if not will pass it to Daniel. Met so many people today la. Didn't know that I'm so popular. Puahaha.. Jkjk!! :P

FOP ended at 1045pm and after all the dilly dallying and jams, it was really quite late already. It's a good thing Anthea's dad sent us to the train station. Or else Lee Si and me would have missed the last train service. Yay. Today is such a happy happy day. So sad. I can't make it for tomorrow's FOP coz got the youth Dinner Under the Stars. Direct time clash and I paid for it already. :( And on Sunday, Rev Mok's coming back from Cambodia and the mission trippers gotta go attend the service or something. But I really really wanna go for FOP and the good thing is that next Monday will be celebration day in school. Haiz.. Shall see if there's any way to pon it. Heh..

Yawns.. I'm so very tired. Good night! :)

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